Relaxing time... Finally!

This weekend was lovely! (Apart from spending a fortune!!!) We took my friends out for a dinner on Friday to celebrate their wedding. We went to a nice little Lebanese place in Farringdon. The food was lovely, the service not so hot though. But if you read the reviews, you will see that is the case anyway, so it didn't come as a great surprise to me! 

 

Saturday my brother and his girlfriend visited me! It was really nice to see them. We went to the cinema to watch the new Mummy film which was ok, typical blockbuster. Nothing special! Then came home and played some Mario Kart! My bf had been at the football all day and so when he came back he was a little tipsy but nowhere near what I thought he would be! Thank goodness! We ordered a take away pizza and chatted until late.

 

Sunday I was pretty lazy. Chilled in the house then met my bf after he finished at the gym. We did a little shopping, had a starbucks and then went to watch the new Adam Sandler film 'Don't mess with The Zohan'. It was very entertaining. A good laugh!

 

My week has begun pretty well - Still loving it here! Still hoping they will make me permanent!!! PLEASE! lol!

 

Swanny

 

 

The pursuit of 'Happyness'

I am feeling pretty blah today. I was fairly happy this morning until certain people mad me feel angry! Ahhhh I give up. It's useless trying to please people sometimes. *sigh* Nothing I ever do seems right. I am always a disappointment and uninnteresting in their eyes. That's what it makes me feel like at least. I ask about a million times, are you ok? is it something I said? Shall I go out and leave you to it? Nothing seems to work! :(

My work has been the only consistent thing in my life at the moment. I am still loving it and have loads more ideas too. It's nice to think my ideas will be put into practice and that I'm learning new, interesting things every day! I feel I belong somewhere!

I am starting to wonder if I'll ever be where I want to be. I am even questioning if I should continue to pursue my hopes and dreams. They feel like they are forever in coming and the more I hope and dream for things such as love, marriage, success etc, It seems to be going to everyone BUT me! :( Thing is, you would expect there to be an issue with me! Although, I don't feel like I treat people any different! If anything I tend to be a lot nicer and loyal than most people are. I guess it allows people to walk all over me and hence why I am in this position. Maybe I need to move on to a new chapter in my life. Maybe I should begin to explore my options. It is surely a scary thought as I have a man I am in love with more than anything, but is there any point in the pursuit when the feelings are not returned (at least, not to the same level). I know he loves me, but I don't think I can ever be what he wants me to be. I just don't think I can make him fall head over heels again!

I think enough is enough in this post. I am tired and tearful... Dwelling on things is probably not the way to go, so as per usual, I shall pick myself up, dust myself doen and get on with it!!! :-(

Swanny :-(

Mamma Mia - Here I go again...

Last night turned out really well! Although I was a little paranoid about my bf. Not that I thought he was doing anything bad because I trust him, but I was more paranoid that he was still not happy with me. Turned out I was worrying over nothing as per usual!!! Oh well.

 

Anyway, I went to Canary Wharf to meet my friends Debi and Viv. We had lovely Pizza Express Pizzas and a bottle of vino. Followed by the 8:30pm shoing of Mamma Mia. Hah... What can I say about that film that would be useful to other cinema goers... hmmmm... If you're a man, you will hate it! It's a great girlie flick but would have been pulled off had it not been for the stars in it! The singing was awful as was the acting, but it was sooo bad in fact that I loved it and it was brilliant! ha ha! I highly reccommend it for a quiet night out with your girls. I couldn't stop laughing all the way through. Pierce Brosnan looked so uncomfortable singing (it looked like he was thinking w'what the hell am I doing in the film') as did Colin Firth! Meryll Streep was great as the mother as were her side kicks in their roles. Needless to say, I have all the ABBA songs in my head today and I've been walking along humming them like a loser! lol!

 

Tonight I am going out with my friend Sarah for her sisters party - the 'Binge Baby's' are reunited once again! I can't wait. I have to meet my bf a little later to go to a Toga Party (with no toga). Ahhhh the delights of a Friday night in London Town! lol!

 

Anywya - I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! And for my twinkers out there - I'll keep twinkling all night long lol!

 

Swanny xx

Pissed off!

I am a little pissed off today as I have had a little tiff with my bf. Things have been going great until the past couple of days. He seems like he is in a constant mood and is talking to me like I am a nobody! I don't appreciate it at all. When I ask him what's wrong, he starts going on about cooking and cleaning up after me etc, but in reality, I do the same. Not the cooking as much as he seems to always take control of that, but I clean up and hover etc. I think he's totally blowing things out of proportion!

 

I am just hoping he will get over his problem at the moment as everything else in my life is good! Even he was 'good' until Tuesday! When am I going to be allowed my little bit of happiness? The bit where I am the important and loved one? At this rate it doesn't look like it's going to happen for a while! Am I chasing a lost cause? I hope to hell I'm not (after 5 years!).

 

Vent over  - I needed to get that out! I'll be fine and dandy tomorrow!

 

Swanny xx

Work and work alike!

A good day in the land of work today! I finished one of my proposals and presented it to my manager. I have high hopes of this project and I think that with my enthusiasm and drive, it will be successful and continue to be so should I leave for any reason! Leaving is really not an option for me though. I love my job and although I am only an ongoing temp, I feel like I am part of a team and the 'temp' part doesn't really exist in my head, I feel like and am treated like a full time permanent member of staff! It's quite rare in the world of temping to find an organisation like that!

I find that these days I am more stressed in my spare time than I am at work. I am having such a great time working here, it really doesn't feel like a chore! I hope my position becomes permanent. I am keeping everything crossed! Hopefully I can persuade them that I am loyal, trustworthy, hard working and dedicated! Which I am in all honesty! I have always worked hard at my previous jobs. I could never understand my redundancy as I would have been more loyal to that director than anyone else. And I'm not taking anything away from the people who worked there, but I was at that stage where I was ready to settle and develop. I chose that role over others because it was a small independent and I could really exercise my ideas and show them what I could do! I really wanted to become a big part of the business! Oh well, it's all in the past now!

Although I felt like I had taken a step backwards, joining this company has propelled me far ahead of where I was! And now I am happy in every way! Phew - It's about time!

 

Swanny xx

Wonderful!!!

I've had my phone for a few days now and I am loving it. I have discovered this twitter app called twinkle which I am totally addicted to! lol! It gets methrough the bus rides to and from work. much more entertaining than reading the paper! lol! I am still looking for super cool apps so if anyone can reccommend them, please let me know! I am still totally baffled as to how the RSS feeds work on the iPhone, so any advice on that too would be greatly appreciated!

My weekend was fun packed once again! Friday I watched the Dark night and went to dinner with some friends of ours. They very kindly bought us dinner which was lovely. We decided to watch the late showing of the film, which being over 2 and a half hours was probably not the best shout in the world as we didn't get home till 1.30am/ 2am. But a great night none the less!

Saturday was spend buying a present for my friend Debi! It was her birthday dinner in the evening. My bf and I went along and we had a great time! I got a little hyper active at one point. Must have been the 70's and 80's cheese they were playing. A bit pissed off about the money we paid though. It was £20 per head and I only had 2 drinks as did my bf and I paid £77 - so someone clearly got off lightly that night!!! I'm now totally broke though which sucks. But I have my iPhone to keep me company!

Sunday was another day of dinners. We went to have Sunday lunch with my bfs family which was nice. I ate loads, but didn't feel too well. I think it had more to do with the weather though as opposed to the food! I am not that great in muggy weather, it gives me a migrane and makes me feel sick! So I spent the evening in bed catching up with the Eastenders Omnibus on the BBC iPlayer!

So that was my weekend! As far as everything else goes it all seems fine! I am loving my work and emailed my boss on Friday to tell her as much. She told me that they would probably need me for a long time which was music to my ears as I do really want to stay in my department if I can :) Things seem to be on the up! I really hope it stays like this because I feel wonderful!!!!

Swanny xx

3G Tastic!

So here I am - Totally excited! I know I blogged the other day about getting a iPhone (second hand!), well, after a few days of exploring it, it turned out I had used all 30mb of my package despite calling Orange 3 times to confirm my usage and asking questions such as 'Does using an iPhone mean I am going to go through my data quicker?'. After not believeing them, I checked online to see for myself. No data left! Nice one Orange!!! So I called up and spoke to a very helpful man, who did all he could to make me feel better. Unfortunately, it was the last straw for me! I had, had enough! I reduced my contract to the lowest I could go and ordered a brand new 3G iPhone :) Which came this morning!

 

It's charging at the moment and I am really excited. My chip has already been activated and I have looked though all of my online services! It's a beauty I must say. It's all I have been speaking about lately - I must be so super boring lol!

 

Anyway, that's pretty much all I have been doing this week! My Dad is coming over tonight and I am excited about that too. I think he's going to love my iPhone! He might even want my spare! lol! Tomorrow I am going to dinner with friends and watching the Dark Knight! I can't wait. Excited is not the word. If I don't calm down soon, I may just have a heart attack!!! lol! Saturday it's my friend Debi's Birthday - I can't wait for that either as I haven't seen her in ages! Must get her present today! :)

 

Other things going on... well, the only other thing is work. I have my projects that I am working on at the moment and I am loving it. It doesn't feel like work it's so fun! I WISH I could be made permanent! It would just give me so much joy and top off my general good feeling at the moment! Who knows! I am going to work hard and see how things go!

 

YAY

 

Swanny xx