Absence

I have been a little rubbish at updating the past few weeks as I have been temping and I had no access to the internet. To be fair though, there wasn't a great deal going on anyway. I had a hen-do to go to last week which was good! I didn't know anyone really though, but I made the best of it. I left at about 11ish and went on to my bf's brothers fancy dress party. That was a brilliant night! I went as a hooters girl. Some of the outfits were really good! The birthday boy went as Zorro!

The past week has been okay but I have been a little worried this week about money and things. My confidence is getting a bit low at the moment though. I am not really sure what to do. I wish it was something that I could just ignore, but it's affecting me and my thoughts on my relationship. I am starting to think that I am going no where and that it's my fault because I am not professional, glamorous or domestic enough to please him in the long run. I don't really know why I am having these thoughts. I tried bringing up a few of my issues last night with him, but it didn't have much effect! I think I am trying too hard, maybe it's time to back off... He's always thinking about work at the moment and I am taking a back seat, so maybe I should just stop shoving my face in his and trying to make him notice me, because it's only making me feel worse when he doesn't!

I do love him though and I think it's worth hanging in there, for the next few months anyway. I am so crazy about him, I think that might be one of the reasons things get to me so much. It's hard to see people around you going places with their bf's and gf's, especially when they have been together 2 minutes, but I just have to keep reminding myself that people are different! I just managed to land myself a commitment phoebe! It doesn't make me love him any less!

Oh well...

I start a new temp role next week! I am really looking forward to it! It;s right by my friends work, so I think we wil be going to lunch most days which is lovely :) I hope I have access to the net in this new place, it's been horrible without it!

I think I am going to put on one of th DVD's I bought!

Ciao for now!

LS xx